Ariana Madix, Tom Sandoval and Raquel Leviss.Photo:Tammie/AFF-USA/Shutterstock; Cindy Ord/Bravo via Getty Images; Charles Sykes/Bravo via Getty Images
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Tom Sandovalrevealed that he contemplated suicide following the fallout of his affair with co-starRaquel Leviss.
In the first episode of his podcastEverybody Loves Tom, theVanderpump Rulesstar confessed the revelation of his affair with Leviss pushed him to the edge of contemplating suicide.
The Bravo star described feeling overwhelmed, unable to see past his emotions. Sandoval said the intensity of those feelings culminated one day upon returning to the home he once shared with his ex,Ariana Madix.
“I’ll never forget this. Like I went to the Grove and I was a huge Linkin Park fan, and I saw Chester at The Grove coming out of the garage,” Sandoval told his friend, celebrity jewelry designer Kyle Chan.
“He seemed happy or, I don’t know, he just was animated, energetic on the phone. I saw him. I was like, ‘Oh my God, it’s Chester.’ Literally, days later, he died. He had, you know, killed himself. And I couldn’t, I could never understand why, but when you get into that headspace, it’s like a domino effect. Your world starts collapsing on itself and you cannot see outside of your feelings. Your peripheral goes away. Your sense of like, thinking about the future, like your ability to snap out of it goes away. And there were some times where I was, you know, felt very, very close.”
The TOMTOM Bar owner made headlines in March whennews of him cheating on Madixwith Leviss broke. Sources told PEOPLE it lasted six months, leaving Madix both “blindsided” and “devastated.”
“I was like at her beck and call in a sense because you couldn’t have your phone in there. No access to anything. And so I had to wait for her call, which can only happen maybe twice, once a day,” Sandoval said. “And so when I would get that call from her, it would be like, ‘Oh, my gosh,’ But I was constantly waiting there. And then, you know, some days, I wouldn’t get that call and it would, you know, it would really affect my mood.”
After the revelation of Sandoval’s prolonged affair with Leviss, her representative confirmed shesought mental health treatmentat an Arizona program. Her rep confirmed she was not there for “rehab,” but rather a program focused on “mental health and trauma therapy.”
Amidst the turmoil, Sandoval reflects that his infidelity towards Madix taught him valuable lessons, and he’s striving to improve himself.
“It has been such a learning experience, you know, with going through everything and with what I did and taking time to actually see the repercussions of my actions,” the Bravo star said. “And, you know, when you’re in a scenario like that and you’re so emotionally wrapped up in your feelings, you don’t think logically and you’re just f—ing selfish.”
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source: people.com
