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Lamar Odom and Khloé Kardashian

Lamar Odomfeels forKhloé Kardashian.

“It was hard for me to watch that,” Odom, 42, toldE! News. “It’s always going to be hard for me to watch someone I love so much sad like that.”

Kardashian and Odom gotmarried in 2009and finalized theirdivorce in 2016. Though they’ve been apart for some time, Odom has been vocal about wishing for another chance with the Good American mogul.

From left: Tristan Thompson, Khloé Kardashian, Lamar Odom.David Livingston/Getty; Rodin Eckenroth/WireImage; Michael Loccisano/Getty

Tristan Thompson, Khloé Kardashian, Lamar Odom

Thursday’s season 2 premiere ofThe Kardashiansshowed the delivery, as well as the aftermath of Thompson’s infidelity. “Ever since December, it’s been this dark cloud looming over me,” Kardashian said. “Every single day, I’ve been feeling depressed and sad, and now that my son is here, I get to move on, and I get to enjoy. It’s almost like I get to close that chapter and be done with this trauma and put it behind me,” she said.

She continued, “Now, I finally get to start the healing process. Now I get to start enjoying my life with two kids in it and figuring this out. This is gonna be day one, and this is gonna be the start of something positive, and happy and beautiful.”

With Kardashian’s permission, Thompsonvisited the hospitalafter the birth of their second child. “I’ve been on the fence about letting Tristan come to the hospital or not, but Tristan wants to be here so I just figured, why not let him come? I’ll never get this moment back,” she told cameras.

Elsewhere in the episode, Kardashian also confirmed she learned of Thompson’s other child at the same time as the rest of the world.

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Episodes ofThe Kardashiansair Thursdays on Hulu.

source: people.com